Sometimes I find it hard to explain the fatigue I experience to other people so that they can understand why I have so much trouble working consistently.
It’s not just being tired, like feeling tired after a long day. The fatigue can be:
- like being drunk without the buzz (feeling lightheaded and being clumsy)
- like jet lag/having pulled an all-nighter (feeling drowsy, wanting to lie down and sleep, doing everything more slowly than usual)
- inability to concentrate or follow complex reasoning, losing track of conversations or movie plots
- inability to focus, being easily distracted, losing things, forgetting obligations
- needing to avoid visual and audio stimulation for a while, even if not sleepy
- forgetting words
- having difficulty making decisions, taking far longer than normal to do things
A lot of these symptoms seem to be common to people who have had concussions. In fact, I’ve only been able to articulate the extent of some of these symptoms after I had a conversation with someone who’s had a concussion. When I heard their symptoms, I realized that many of them applied to me as well.
I will have to mention this to my doctor the next time I have an appointment. I think that “fatigue” may not mean the same thing to her as it means to me.